Sweeney Todd Red.....

My oldest daughter watched the ulitmate Valentine's movie tonight. Sweeney Todd! We both had seen it before, but it was fun to sing along with Mr. Depp. I was shopping on the computer (as always), when my Jaded J gave me the go ahead to get my new dress from Lucie Lu. He does have a way of spoiling me! He also got me a lovely box of chocolates and a cyclamen plant for my birthday, which is also on Valentines day. This is the dress I ended up getting, and I also bought this belt from Torrid.


The dress I thought would have many ways of wearing it (thank you for the inspiration Bombshell Beauty, see her Top 10 List post) I also thought it would allow me to get two goals completed in one purchase. The dress needs a belt, so it coerced into buying the one from Torrid, which would allow me to belt other outfits as well. My other goal is try to wear something sleeveless this summer. I have never liked my upper arms, not the shape necessairly but I have Keratosis Pilaris, also know as chicken skin, and I am self conscious of it. Embracing all of my perceived flaws is my goal, so my arms shall see the sun this summer. Maybe.

Darn you Lucie Lu....!

More pretties posted today and some things that I want that have gone on sale. Jaded J is unmoved. I have asked, I have pretended to already buy them, begged, pouted, nothing works. WAHHHHHHH!!!!! Here are some of things I like....

Size problem?

I recently ordered a ton of clothes (as you know). I have a problems with my ordering and my regular shopping, and that is I always go to the biggest size possible. I am very self conscious of my weight being displayed in overly tight clothing. I somtimes do need the largest size because my boobs make it impossible to go any smaller. What I am finding through my self acceptance journey is that I have trouble distinguishing between too loose and too tight. For example my new Red Torrid sweater I bought in a size 5, and it fit, but probably could have been smaller. I look at the pictures from the website, and mine definately doesn't hug my body like the models. I am so afraid of looking ridiculous, or trying to dress to young for my age. But....I also don't want to be frumpy.

Another hang up I have with clothing is that I hate trying things on to find out that they are too small. I makes me feel like I have failed, and then I get depressed. My solution has been to buy the biggest size and that way I know it will fit, no instant guilt for getting "too" big. I really study the other blogs I follow, and those ladies look so nice and put together. Rarely do I think that outfit is too small or unflattering, but I know if I put it on my body that I would be pulling and tugging and trying to find a way to hide myself better. Perhaps that is it, I feel like I should hide, because I don't look as good as the other people I work with in terms of being trim and body beautiful.

How do I overcome this issue? How do I find classic and sleek, from tight or frumpy?

My First Vlog...and new Header

The sound and picture are not in synch!!!! I will work on that.....sorry everyone.

Well I thought I would try out my webcam on my new computer tonight. I had a great reason to I got my shoes from Schuh!!!!! God, if I could love a pair of shoes these would be it (until I get a new pair, which will make equally happy). My husband asked me if I was going to take them off so I could admire them all day, it was a thought....

Also my lovely Jaded J made me a new header for my blog. The man is a graphics genius, and it is everything I wish I could have done on my own. I gave him the pictures, and he created the masterpiece. I am very blessed to have him.

Hope you enjoy it as much as I do!

Things that I wish were in my size

I wish that they made old fashioned lingerie in my size. I love the look and feel of vintage intimates. They aren't cut too high, they have room to wiggle in, they are silky and lacy. They come in colors that are pale like ice creams. They look like they are made for women, not for porn stars. I would not feel ridiculous in those garments. I have been thin before, and even then current lingerie made me feel self conscious. I want to feel feminine, not slutty. This is when I wish I could sew, because I in my mind I have some fabulous designs.

Strolling the Avenue

Some more of my new lovelies arrived today. I came home from work with a migraine, so I haven't had time to enjoy them until now. Thank goodness for excederin migraine, and dark rooms, and sleep. Anyway my new children came from Avenue. Avenue is probably my favorite bricks and mortar store in my town. The clerks here are awesome, they know me, and everything is very laid back. Sometimes if I can't get the size in my store I will do an online order. This time, I wanted the boots which were actually from their sister site Jessica London, and then I found some other great bargains in the clearance section, and I also had a 30% coupon.

The boots I got are grey, not the turquoise color in the picture. I liked them even better in person, super soft, and the grey is a nice medium steel grey color. I think have mentioned this before, but my favorite color is grey. Dark, light, heathered. I LOVE GREY!

The tops were cute, and not a weird length. I have bought cami's in the past from Avenue and usually they are too short, or too tight. These were neither...yeah!

The jacket is so cute in person, I see lots of potential for this item. Nice dark color, and I am into the military look, so this totally fit the bill.

I love getting packages......

Self Challenge

I am going to try wearing a belt and defining my waist this month. I am self conscious of my apron of fat, and my big butt. I see other bloggers who wear them, and they look great, I just need to take the plunge. This has to be part of my self acceptance. Now where to buy a belt? Ideas?